There are the days that I just do.
Don’t judge me, I love my little girl so much but I admit to missing the freedom of doing all that I used to.
I miss people - I think twice about hanging out too much because it tires me so much after
I miss nights out - it’s too cold, baby’s too young and I’m too tired
I miss working at a mad pace - simply put I don’t have the energy to anymore.
And, I miss time alone.
I could list more; but as I look back, I realised that even though those days are behind me for now, I have no regrets about how it’s been:
A 100 percent living it loud, alive and real. With people and with love. Most of all with a God that gave me every amazing moment of it.
My life today has changed its tune and has a new momentum. I just have to accept that priorities have shifted and the rhythm is new. But no less blessed as before.
I’m learning to embrace this unfamiliar chapter. As I spend most of my time caring for my baby girl, I have to constantly remind myself that i want to look back at where i am today with no regrets - loving what God has put in my care and living out this new chapter with a 100percent, with everyone that I have in my life - daryl, tahlia, family and friends.
‘All the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day - psalm 139:16 msg’
And as I go through each new day - hard or easy but mostly uncertain and out of my control, I know that if He’d already prepared it, He has gone through where I am right now, before i have even known it. And He’s right where I need Him, the best guide I could possibly have, and never alone.